How I feel

the days go by I slowly grow colder
Most people don’t even notice I don’t care anymore
It’s like I’m not even there
Sometimes it seems that I should just fade away
Different things I have done in my life never even mattered
Does anything matter anymore?
Do I matter?
Is my life just one of those meaningless things to people?
Was it my fault that bad things always happen to the people I care about most?
Is it my fault that everything has gone wrong in my life that I forgot a lot of it
Someone told me a while back to never give up on life because he wasn’t allowed to
Well sorry I did so now you can too if you still want to
Feels like the world is crumbling around me
I know it’s not my fault but it feels like it
My family seems to blame 9 out 10 things going wrong on me
They get a call from someone saying your child is in trouble
First thing they ask is if it was me
It wasn’t because I was in my room all day doing nothing
You didn’t notice again but that’s ok I don’t care anymore