Thursday, January 12, 2006

All these walls keep closing in on me
The darkness is surrounding me
In this dark room i sit and wait
Wait for the light to come and find me
Tbe room is cold and damp
I feel like i'm trapped
No way out
Huddled in the center
I try to find myself
Find where I am if I am even me anymore
Has everything changed around me?
Or is it just me
I guess only time will tell

Now that I realize how my life should be
I can look into the mirror and see me
Not the girl who I used to see staring back at me
The one who laughed and taunted me
Telling me I would never be anything
I know now that I can be loved
That I'm not just another nobody
I have found what I thought I could never find
I found you
Your the one who showed me things I have never known
I was shown not everything in life has to be bad
That some things can be perfect in life
Until I met you I always thought I wasn't worth anything
I was ugly and worhtless nobody could ever love me
You made me believe I was beautiful
Made me believe that I was worth everything to someone
That I wasn't just a nothing
You made me realize that I could be everything to someone and more

I'm sorry I ever hurt you
I'm sorry I did the things I did
I'm sorry I love you so much
I'm sorry that I cant be with you right now
I wish I could erase all the wrong I have done
I can't though and that hurts
Hurts me more than anything in this world
Nothing can compare to the pain I feel inside
All I do is think about how it was and how it could be
How it should be
Everything that is great I see in you
I miss it all
The way you said you loved me
The look in your eyes every time you looked at me
The way you kissed me
The way I felt when you held me through the night
The way you missed me
The smiles and laughter we had
Our long talks in the middle of the night
Most of all I miss you and me
I miss US

The fire still burns in my soul for you
I tried to put it out with other fires
Those fires just died out and made yours grow
Made the fire grow froma small campfire to a huge bonfire
Soon I know it will grow into a forest fire
Your love was the tiny match that started it all
This fire in my hear grows bigger everyday for you
I learned a long time ago I can never put out the fire
It will never stop growing
This fire is the biggest fire anybody could have for anybody

When I saw you again after for so long
I noticed the fire in your eyes was gone
The fun and laughter had died
All I could see was pain and sorrow
What happened to you?
You wouldn't say
Why you said nothing I dont know
I know one thing though
You forgot
Forgot I know you better than you know yourself
She hurt you again
Why do you keep ggoing back to her i'll never know
Why do you hurt yourself so?
See I'm that girl
I never wanted to hurt you again
I planned on being with you forever
Though that can never be
When I first saw you, you were just another guy
Another one of his friends
Shyer than the rest
I never thought I would end up like this
Never thought I could love you
At first it was just a favor for a friend
One who wanted me back
I fell so fast so far and so hard
Fell like a child learning how to walk
Our first kiss was one I can never forget
Every day I spent without you seemed like eternity
This love I have for you will never end

It started out as a jealous "favor"
A favor for a friend who wanted to keep me
Keep me for himself
He thought I would learn to hate you
Hate you and run back to him
Run back crying because you would hurt me
He never thought I might learn to love you
You guys faught so much because of me
It ruined your friendship and almost us
Now nothing can ruin us
Nothing can tear us apart anymore
All because of a jealous favor

As you slept I said somethings you couldn't hear
I told you things you would never believe
You talked back to me but you wont remember
You wont remember anything at all
I told you I could sleep in your arms forever
Your my angel, and you can do nothing wrong
In my eyes you are perfect in every single way
I love you more than anything in the world
Tomorrow when you awake you wont know
You wont know everything I have said
You know everything now but yet you will never know

This love I have for you is stronger than any other
Stronger than a raging river
Stronger than the hottest, biggest fire
Stonger than the most fierce wind
I would walk and crawl through all of these things just to get to
For you i would walk around the world
Just to see you for one minute
Just to hold you in my arms one last time
All the people in the world could not stop me
I would stop at nothing to get to you

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