As the shadows close in on me
I watch the cars pass by through the glass
How many time will you leave me here?
When will you come back?
Why won't you stay here with me?
Am I that bad of a person that you can't stay with me
Stay while they talk to me and put needles in me
While they monitor my every move?
Ok then you do that you leave me here
Just like last time I have gotten used to it
I don't need you anymore
I never have needed you since that day
They day you told everybody you didn't want me
You didn't want me home anymore they could keep me

You stand there taking my hand and tell me you love me
Yet you are making me choose between my friends and you
How can you do that to me if you love me?
I should of known anyways you did the same thing to my sister
We thought you had changed I guess not
We were wrong to believe you had
For you she gave up everything even me
I'm not like her I wont give up everything I love for you
I will give up you I am not leaving my friends
I can't loose them I need them more than I need you
They have been there with me through everything
You dont know me even yet
Don't try to kiss me when I am yelling at you
It won't work this time
I'm leaving
Leaving you for good

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This time around I know you will be mine
Mine forever, I wont give you up
I tried to live without you before
I couldn't handle it as you have seen
You are everything to me
The only thing that matters to me
After I left you I cried for days
Cried until I had no tears left to cry
Ever since that day I just haven't been myself
I never knew who I was until I lost you
I know now that I am nothing without you
I wish I could be back with you right now
Right now I am going to have to deal with the pain
The pain that grows inside me more everyday
Everyday I dont see you makes it that much worse
Being without you right now hurts more than anything in the world
When can I take this pain away?
It hurts so bad to know that your not mine
I cry myself to sleep every night
Cry because I don't know if your thinking of me too
I don't know if you hurt this bad too
Your stonger than me in everything
How much longer must I wait
Wait to be happy again?
Your the only thing in this life that matters to me

As I see my reflection in the mirror
I see myself as a little child
A little child scared and alone
Scared because I saw the end
Alone because nobody loves me
I find myself drawing pretty pictures
Yet when I go to look for them they are broken
Broken pieces lying on the floor
How they broke I do not know
Playing with dolls is a escape for me
A escape from the world around me
Mommy and Dady fighting
People crying and dying
I shatter the mirror this time
Shatter it because I can't turn away any longer
Turn away from the pain it shows inside
The pain I hide inside, locked away
Locked away forever and throw away the key
I wish it could all be a dream
The blood, shattering glass, screaming and fighting....

All these walls keep closing in on me
The darkness is surrounding me
In this dark room i sit and wait
Wait for the light to come and find me
Tbe room is cold and damp
I feel like i'm trapped
No way out
Huddled in the center
I try to find myself
Find where I am if I am even me anymore
Has everything changed around me?
Or is it just me
I guess only time will tell

Now that I realize how my life should be
I can look into the mirror and see me
Not the girl who I used to see staring back at me
The one who laughed and taunted me
Telling me I would never be anything
I know now that I can be loved
That I'm not just another nobody
I have found what I thought I could never find
I found you
Your the one who showed me things I have never known
I was shown not everything in life has to be bad
That some things can be perfect in life
Until I met you I always thought I wasn't worth anything
I was ugly and worhtless nobody could ever love me
You made me believe I was beautiful
Made me believe that I was worth everything to someone
That I wasn't just a nothing
You made me realize that I could be everything to someone and more

I'm sorry I ever hurt you
I'm sorry I did the things I did
I'm sorry I love you so much
I'm sorry that I cant be with you right now
I wish I could erase all the wrong I have done
I can't though and that hurts
Hurts me more than anything in this world
Nothing can compare to the pain I feel inside
All I do is think about how it was and how it could be
How it should be
Everything that is great I see in you
I miss it all
The way you said you loved me
The look in your eyes every time you looked at me
The way you kissed me
The way I felt when you held me through the night
The way you missed me
The smiles and laughter we had
Our long talks in the middle of the night
Most of all I miss you and me
I miss US

The fire still burns in my soul for you
I tried to put it out with other fires
Those fires just died out and made yours grow
Made the fire grow froma small campfire to a huge bonfire
Soon I know it will grow into a forest fire
Your love was the tiny match that started it all
This fire in my hear grows bigger everyday for you
I learned a long time ago I can never put out the fire
It will never stop growing
This fire is the biggest fire anybody could have for anybody

When I saw you again after for so long
I noticed the fire in your eyes was gone
The fun and laughter had died
All I could see was pain and sorrow
What happened to you?
You wouldn't say
Why you said nothing I dont know
I know one thing though
You forgot
Forgot I know you better than you know yourself
She hurt you again
Why do you keep ggoing back to her i'll never know
Why do you hurt yourself so?
See I'm that girl
I never wanted to hurt you again
I planned on being with you forever
Though that can never be
When I first saw you, you were just another guy
Another one of his friends
Shyer than the rest
I never thought I would end up like this
Never thought I could love you
At first it was just a favor for a friend
One who wanted me back
I fell so fast so far and so hard
Fell like a child learning how to walk
Our first kiss was one I can never forget
Every day I spent without you seemed like eternity
This love I have for you will never end

It started out as a jealous "favor"
A favor for a friend who wanted to keep me
Keep me for himself
He thought I would learn to hate you
Hate you and run back to him
Run back crying because you would hurt me
He never thought I might learn to love you
You guys faught so much because of me
It ruined your friendship and almost us
Now nothing can ruin us
Nothing can tear us apart anymore
All because of a jealous favor

As you slept I said somethings you couldn't hear
I told you things you would never believe
You talked back to me but you wont remember
You wont remember anything at all
I told you I could sleep in your arms forever
Your my angel, and you can do nothing wrong
In my eyes you are perfect in every single way
I love you more than anything in the world
Tomorrow when you awake you wont know
You wont know everything I have said
You know everything now but yet you will never know

This love I have for you is stronger than any other
Stronger than a raging river
Stronger than the hottest, biggest fire
Stonger than the most fierce wind
I would walk and crawl through all of these things just to get to
For you i would walk around the world
Just to see you for one minute
Just to hold you in my arms one last time
All the people in the world could not stop me
I would stop at nothing to get to you

Life

Why has this happened to me?
Why am I growing so thin?
This is scaring me
Just when things were starting to go great
The world starts crumbling around me all over again
The life I am living starts goin back down the hill
Will I ever make it to the top?
This hill of life we are all on I cant ever seem to make it to the top
Seems like there is nothing for me to hold on to
To keep me from falling
Falling back down to the bottom

Rollercoater

Love is like a roller coaster
Always has its ups and downs
It can change the way you look at life forever
Turn your world upside down
Can scare you to death
Yet excite you all in the same moment
How love can do that nobody knows
Love is a mystery just like a rollercoater
Never know whats up ahead
Never know whats around the bend
Or at the end
Hopefully it will be a fun ride
One that never ends
Last forever until the end of time

US

First time I saw you I knew it was meant to be
Knew deep in my heart in my heart that I should be with you forever
I just had to make you mine some day somehow someway
Our love will never fade away
I can see that you love me in everyway
With all your heart and soul
More than life itself
I need you with me from now tll the end of time
I will never be able to love anybody more than I do you
If I ever lost you I wouldnt cry
I wouldnt cry because I would die
Your everything to me
Without you I am nothing
You make me complete

As the days go by I slowly grow colder
Most people don’t even notice I don’t care anymore
It’s like I’m not even there
Sometimes it seems that I should just fade away
Different things I have done in my life never even mattered
Does anything matter anymore?
Do I matter?
Is my life just one of those meaningless things to people?
Was it my fault that bad things always happen to the people I care about most?
Is it my fault that everything has gone wrong in my life that I forgot a lot of it?
Someone told me a while back to never give up on life because he wasn’t allowed to
Well sorry I did so now you can too if you still want to
Feels like the world is crumbling around me
I know it’s not my fault but it feels like it
My family seems to blame 9 out 10 things going wrong on me
They get a call from someone saying your child is in trouble
First thing they ask is if it was me
It wasn’t because I was in my room all day doing nothing
You didn’t notice again but that’s ok I don’t care anymore